Missing Daniel.

I am having one of my inflammatory days (joint pains, fatigue and malaise) so I cancelled my visit with  Daniel.  I called the NICU and the nurse told me he was fine.

Days like this, I feel mighty guilty and sad.
  Days like this, I wondered  why me.
Why do I have to go through all this pains and have a young baby suffer.

Days like this, I look inward and tries to draw strength.
I find none most of the time.

Days like this, I miss my son and my pain free life.
Days like this, I can only hope and pray.