Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas to everyone out there celebrating.  Stay safe and fo not drink and drive

Keeper!

Dear diary,

It is so freaking hard being a single mother!!!
And now I know why many women remain in bad  situations just to feel the hand of compassion and passion  once in a while, I understand.

We are creatures of companion, or should I say companionship creatures. We are definitely meant for one and one is meant for us.  No one is meant to be  alone because loneliness hurts. 

Many friends have been trying to hook this mama up but I am kind of content being alone for now because I enjoy the peace and quiet. And enjoy being me. It is a double edged sword kind of situation.

Seriously, When I am ready, i will wax my legs and carve my brows. Get some pedicure and soften my skin, jog around and dive in love!

But for now, imma chill and wait!

Days

I have not written in a while because I have

been busy being a single mom. Yes! Single mom!

Sometimes you have to forge ahead and continue your journey alone.



Kids are doing great in our new environment.

Hope yall are good?

My Name is...

His name is Daniel and he can sit on the barber's chair without parental help and life is getting better.

Hi yall.

After The Storm.

Life have been great and good to me.

I have learnt how to enjoy every moment given. 

I have learnt how to  breath in and out.

I have learnt how to be a mother. 

I have learnt how to be a provider and a gatherer.

I have learnt how to be me 

and 

 Constantly  learning how to be the best me.

Shalom.

Break Over!

11 days of staying at home and tomorrow work and school resumes.  it has been a great break and I am thankful to God for every opportunity given to me to spend time with my kids.  I am a workaholic, i love work but this year I wanted to take it easy on those joints, yes! I am feeling old. lol

Tomorrow , it will be nice to resume life on the fast lane again and look forward to the weekends.  for now, I head to bed and try to get the kids to cooperate.

Where we at!

This year is almost  over and all I can think about is my forthcoming vacation with my sister  and family in Pennsylvania. I have not seen her in almost two years and there is even a kiddo or (two) I need to be introduced to as aunt when I arrive.

I cannot wait to experience the cold and lazy air of the country side. I cannot wait to let the kids get loose and roam free while me and my sister catch up on lost times.  It is a time I wait for. A time where everything will seem so normal for a while. A time where I do not have to think of my autistic son or worry about stabbing looks from strangers. A time of family for family.

I love this photo because of the rays of sunlight on him.

God is with him I am sure!

A walk by the lake.

A little dance.

Picking a flower.

A time where I can just be with family because they know and understand and try not to judge me and him. Having an autistic son takes the life  out of you as you try to make him normal in the public eye or try to bribe him into not throwing another fit in the middle of the restaurant or Walmart. I am learning to be strong for him and I am learning to follow his lead and follow him into the world where my understanding is highly limited.

As a mother, I seat at at his mental and emotional door everyday and hoping he will let me in each day. That is where I at.